hi people

i meant fuck you.
i hate you.
you confuse me.
you fucking disappoint me.
fuck you.
fuckeeeeeeeeety fuck fuck fuck.

RAGEEEEEEE!!!!

bad day?

are YOU having a BAD DAY? :(
well, do i have the cure for you, works everytime. (for me)
heres one i prepared earlier, just for you. :) :)




isnt he just the cutest thing? <3 <3 hahahaha.
love love. POCOYO ftw.

home

So, usually in times where i feel like nothing is going right, life hates me, everythings screwed and im a failure- i often tell myself i want to go home. it doesnt matter where i am: at school, on the train, if its sunny, rainy, cold, hot. i want to go home.

but sometimes home just doesnt feel like home. it doesnt feel like the warm, happy, loving place that im looking for. i often find myself ask why this place i call home doesnt feel like that place that i want it to be? i curl into my little ball and cry my silly heart out.

i want somewhere i belong, somewhere i can feel safe, somewhere that makes me happy, somewhere where i know people love me for who i am even if ive screwed up and even if im a failure. im not sure anywhere will feel like home when im upset.

where is home?
i want to go back.

p.s: i miss you dad, love you.

$$

i swear the world better prepare, for when im a billionaire

chrissy island.

dear home.
i quite miss you.
your keeping my dad.
and i miss him.

dear home.
i miss your clear waters.
i miss your sunny and rainy days.
i do miss your lightning and thunder.

dear home.
i remember when money didnt matter
your $2 movies.
and your $8 thai rice.

dear home.
i like walking everwhere.
going to the park after movies.
walking to the beach on the weekends.

dear home.
i miss the friends there.
i dont miss the aunties there though.
and i still hate school.

dear home.
when do you think ill be able to visit?
i miss how easy everything used to be.
please say you'll see me again.

< 3

hai bapey<3
one and one quater years.
fifteen months
454 days


loveeee you :)

i'm stronger

We've been through the storm,

We've been through it all

We had some close calls,

But never would fall

We climbed all the mountains,

Went through all the valleys,

But you never left me behind

I found my way through the clouds,

No more running scared and closing my eyes

I will be true, this love from my heart,

I'm laying my life on the line

I will survive,

As long as it's you by my side .

i will survive.

& i hope

seeing my face ruined your night :)
HHAHAHA lovelove.

Orenji-shoku no kuruma.

i shall have you one day. and you will be ALL MINE. MUAHAHAH

continental

dear cup-a-soup

damn you and your false advertising
>:(

fcuk me.

i need inspirations for my marketing assignment :(
and i need them NOW.
NOW
NOW
!!

where to now?

it seems oh-so long ago when it was my baby days. i miss it, and i hate this. i hate the resposibilities, i hate getting dissapointed, i hate people, i hate money, pfft i hate looking for a job.

people these days seem less friendly. it sucks, what happened to the time where everyone was your friend. where your only job was to clean up after yourself, the money was supplied by someone else and you didnt have to care about anything. anyways.

im 17, and a half. the next few years will determine where my life shall lead. where i will be. the people im with. and im still stuck with what i want to be. ive been tossing between nursing, teaching, vet, and all these other jobs but none of them seem really really right. right now im tossing between banking, pharmacy and events manager.

the NO job:
nursing- blood, needles, dead people :|
teaching- children, kids, teenagers. bleh.

the YES job:
banker- dealing with money? WHOOPWHOOP! haahah
pharamacy- drugs :), joking, but im not smart enough for it.
events manager- i think ive always wanted to be a wedding planner :| weird but i think its loveely planning everyones most important day of their lives. loool.

wherever i shall go. no mroe silly mistakes, no more wrong choices, no more irresponsible crap.

girls best friend

when i was little i had a golden retriever :) he was lovely although we had to keep him outside tied up. my parents bought him for me from sherilyns grandpa after we saw him at the restaurant one night. that night my dad brought him home and put him in a box under the table when i was asleep. all i remmeber now is how happy i felt when i woke up that morning. all smiles.

i think,  i know that i am no doubt 3147937197442% a dog person. whats not to love- theyre smart, cute, their wet noses, soft fur and floppy ears.

 nowatleast 4 times every week, i jump on websites to search for a new puppy. but so far the conclusions are theyre all too much for mynon exsisting bank account to handle :( *sigh*

shels top 5 puppies:
1. chow chow,
2. japanese spitz,
3. alaskan maluate,
4. samoyed,
5. sharpei.

:)

ok, soo. new blog thingy.
i shall write in this as much as i can.
so someone please remind me i have one of these!
ahahha, lovelovelove